I haven't been awake this late in awhile... I'm burnin' the 3 AM oil, I guess! So, I am finally getting ready to move to Nebraska! Erm, let me rephrase... I'm moving to Nebraska soon and I need to pack! Haha! I'll do it on the 25th or something. I can't believe it is going to happen. It's real... Holy shit.



In other news, I start my second term at Kaplan tonight. I just spent the past hour beating myself up by looking at reviews about the school. That's always a horrible idea. Most of the people that write opinions are the ones who lost money. It can't happen to everyone. I really think that most people drop out of online schools because there is so much LIFE going on around you! Especially at your own home. In an actual school you have entirely different things to focus on. I don't feel too bad about choosing an online education. I've already noticed that I'm smarter than about 85% of my classmates. It's ok, most of them haven't been in school for a long time. But those are the people, the ones that don't even know how to spell grammar, that get themselves fucked over and write shitty reviews. Most of the bad reviews are about Financial Aid... Hopefully I have no problems with them! Eek!



So, anyways, an education is an education. The school is regionally accredited, most of the professors seems to hold high degrees, the classes are interesting, and online degrees seem to be more accepted these days. Someday soon, I'll do some calling around; asking about if I could get a job somewhere with a certain degree. It's human services, so I don't think I'll have a problem!



I am surprised at how excited I am to start a new class! I haven't taken well to doing nothing again. 2 weeks of vacation were strange. I like worrying about something. Homework is the perfect thing to worry about! Eustress, eustress, eustress...



So, school and Nebraska.

That's about it.

I deleted my Facebook again. I really just feel like an idiot on there. The sad part is that I'm one of the only people I know that actually tried to use it to share information about the world around me, not just myself.

Facebook is creating a new definition of shallow.



I guess, all it took was my sister deleting a well written, non-judgemental, intelligent comment right in my face-- because I didn't take her side. Screw her. The world isn't about pleasing Julie. The world is infinitely larger and more interesting than my sister and her shallow, single minded views. She really, honestly never talk to anyone that disagrees with her. If she does, I'm sure she cuts them down behind their backs as soon as possible.



Enough about that. She's my sister and I love her. I shouldn't say bad things about her. She is a smart person, but we just don't get along. Heck, that talk I had with her, as she deleted my comment, was the first time I'd talked to her in 3 weeks. I'm the one that always calls.



I gotta long history of bitterness with her and her ideas of the world. She is the anti-Lindsay.



I'm just writing about it to get it off my mind. I really don't like thinking about it. Things like this though just eat at you. The more you try to talk about it with someone, the less they see you as a hurt person and the more they look at you as a whining, conceited, twit. But it hurts to be censored. Especially, by family. What's next? Is she going to censor me out of her life because my views don't match hers? Because I say something "wrong". I'm not making this up. I think she started censoring me when I was about 12 or 13. She should've learned by now that I never shut up.



Toodles,

Lindsay Grace