Just wait...

I haven't written anything meaningful in awhile. I think it's because I've been feeling like there is no time. That's impossible for me. I'm rich in time. Too bad that Time=Money doesn't work that way.
Since I'm about to be absolutely broke, with no job, no future, what feels like no boyfriend, and no pride... I feel oddly prepared. This feels like one of those character building times in life. The kind everyone who is anyone seems to have had.

The smart important people that is. Fuck you Kardashians and Paris Hilton.

I'm not worried. Too much.

No. I'm lying.

I know that as long as I can live with my parents, I'll be ok, and my basic needs will be met.
I don't want to live like I'm a child though.
I can't let any circumstance stop me from overcoming this. Not my own fears, not my worries about others.
I need this stress, I need this fear, I need this...

But I want to run away so much.

I just want to take my last couple hundred dollars and buy a ticket somewhere and... I don't know... Breathe? Air is still free right?

I think one of the things that scares me the most is that I'm even thinking of the military as an option.
I, of course, throw that option out of my head as fast as possible.
I don't stand for that. I want to be in control of my life.

Which... Well, I'm not. Shit.

Being in control is overrated. No one has their shit straight anyway.
I'll be trying to keep perspective, and, it makes me kind of sick to say, stay positive.
Nevermind, I'll try for realistic... I can handle that.

Happy trails to youuuuuu....

L.G.K./W.

Tomorrow is often the busiest day of the week.
—Spanish Proverb
 

Some Things I Like

Random Amazon book reviewer "...a man searching for life's great metaphor only to find a thousand clichéd similes...".

"Some dreams don't come true. But you can always make new ones" - Supposedly a 4 year old said that. I found it in a little booklet that came with one of Cole's toys.

:D

Best Vacation Ever!!!

Open Book

Whoa, drugs.

Vicodin rocks. That is all.


*no need to worry, I'm using it as a painkiller. I had my ear surgery today :)